God's Plan

God works in mysterious ways...

I haven't been as close to Him as I'm suppose to for a long time now but I do pray every night. Praying about school, about family, about jobs, about friends, and about patience.

I have another year left of school and I am ELATED to finally get out of school!! I cannot wait to graduate in May and finally be a big girl! But I'm so nervous, too. Not being able to find a job. Finding a job and not liking it. Just so much to think about. It is going to be the rest of me life so obviously, it's going to be a pretty big deal. I know God has it all planned out for me so I'll just let Him take care of me :)

My family has been through soo much these past couple of years, I don't even know where to start. I'm too scared to tell my friends the real reason why I came home. All I tell them is that out of state is getting expensive so I decided to come home, which is true. I know I'll be too embarrassed to tell my friends the real reason why. After going to a private school for so long, people there just assume that your family can afford out of state tuition while still paying for a sibling to go to private school. I don't know if they'll be able to understand. One of my best friends, I love her to death, but I know for a fact that she won't understand because God has blessed her with a wonderful family and she doesn't have to worry about that. Am I jealous? Of course I am. I loved Ole Miss. I loved my sorority sisters. I loved my life there. I remember the day I left for my last semester at Ole Miss, I cried half way to Oxford and praying the whole time. I know that God has a reason for this to happen but I was just so angry. Looking back, I am such a selfish person. He has greater plans for me in life and I know it. I just didn't want to accept what He had in store for me.

I shouldn't worry about what my friends think though because after all, they are my friends. And now, I'm living with one of my best friends for the summer! I'm so excited to be in AGGIELAND for the summer and just relax with my friends! God has blessed me with some amazing people :)

Oh patience... I have a hard time with this. Probably one of my flaws. One of my best friends and I... well... I guess I ran out of patience waiting for him to not be scared anymore. It something were to happened, it would've happened already. I've prayed to God about this and has asked for signs and everything and one night, a light bulb went off. Maybe God not showing me a sign is the sign. The sign that some things are just not meant to be. Or maybe God is just waiting for the perfect moment for something magical to happen between us. Either way, my patience went out and this best friend is well, still my best friend. I know God has something in store for us maybe we're just meant to be friends.

All in all, God has a plan for me and I am more than excited to see what's going to happen.

"May you be strengthened with all power according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy." Colossians 1:11